November 2011
1 post
Just Another Glorious Day
Well, I found out today what I thought was gone is back. I’m not too surprised. You can’t go back to the actions that got you in trouble in the first place and not pay the consequences.
Yeah, I know, nobody really cares. Most people don’t.
February 2011
1 post
A Long Time
Just another day, thought I had something to say, wish I could write a song, but that would take too long.
I know someone who is making his goal this year to create something. I just want to change 75% of everything around me. Stuff no longer relevant. It would be easy if I wouldn’t be so sentimental or afraid of being wasteful.
I will convert to Mac, I will convert to Mac, I will...
April 2009
1 post
One of those weeks
Ever have one of those weeks where every “thing” was an emergency and every “one” either crossed you or made you feel like one of the biggest fools that ever walked the planet? Yeah, it’s been one of those weeks.
Oh, well. Some day I’ll just be replaced by a better version. Although, my dark side hopes it will be someone really incompetent.
January 2009
2 posts
I don't care what people say........
……….or think, George W did the best he could.
Robin Williams
My sympathies to the Travolta family for their loss.
All of the brainless entertainment shows cannot stop playing the same thing over and over. They need to leave this family alone. I do not want to name the “celebrities” who know the family and have been so public in their sorrow. Unbelieveable!
I would like to commend Robin Williams for his response to an “entertainment...
July 2008
2 posts
Brandon's coming home
It’s that time of the year where I am blessed to have my son home to spend time. Three things I’ve been waiting to see: Bodies, Frog Bog and “The Dark Knight”. We’ll re-watch some of our favorites or rather he’ll watch them while I fall asleep. He’s really good about that. Things sure are boring when he’s not around. Oh, God, here comes...
No matter how hard I try
Why is it that no matter how hard I try to lose weight I can’t? Four years ago when I was scared I would pay a high price it was easy. I guess depriving myself of chocolate for three years had it’s toll on me. When I made my Christmas fudge…………I went nuts! Weakness of the flesh. I doubt I’m addicted and I’m definitely not a connoisseur but when...
May 2008
1 post
Check this out.....
UCLA Dept of Psychiatry Study A study conducted by UCLA’s Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle. For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating or menopausal, she tends to be more attracted to a...
March 2008
1 post
Another Day
Too much shit! How can one person screw up so much? Why do I always feel like I have to clean up the mess? I must look like the world’s biggest dumb ass because I sure do feel like one. I keep thinking there’s really nothing more to do and it’s not worth trying to accomplish anything anymore. Have I reached the end? If yes, now what? Stuff is just stuff. Caring is too...
February 2008
3 posts
BLP
My son. He can make me laugh. Dry, raunchy, subtle, controversial. He understands a lot about how things effect me. He breaks my heart when he tells me he’s disappointed me. He never has. I will regret the spilled milk the rest of my life. He never deserved that tirade. He’s not perfect but then I seem to cherish things more that are not perfect. I know it’s a burden for...
Too Much
Sitting here again at 3:00 in the morning not because I want to but because I have little choice. This job will be the death of me. Weather sucks. Everybody else in the department is at home tucked in safe and warm except Renee. She decided to stay so she wouldn’t lose overtime. Me…gotta keep the patients covered. There’s a nice bunch of young nurses on the unit so the...
Superbowl Sunday
It’s always quiet here on Superbowl Sunday. I have to work the next day so I usually don’t watch the entire game. Got a few goodies for game time anyway. I like the Patriots and it would be cool to see them win everything but then it might be more cool if Eli got a ring. In football they play 19 games max and you gotta be realitively good to be the champ and they work hard for...
January 2008
2 posts
Sixx A.M. "Life is Beautifu" →
(sigh)
I knew he was asleep as I went to close his door. Because of the full moon I could see his silhouette in profile even with the curtains drawn. I heard him breathing softly. As I pulled the door closed I realized I, too, was asleep.
December 2007
2 posts
Leaving Again
He came home for Christmas and tomorrow he leaves. No matter how hard I try my heart breaks anew each time he prepares to leave. When you know it’s going to be months before you see the one person who has had the most enormous effect in your life, saying goodbye is next to impossible. All this mother wants is to hear his heart beating as a hug is given and received. To feel the movement...
1 week
Frozen in time. Past, present, future. Laughing hysterically. Sobbing uncontrollably. Too many words. Words elude. The mind wanders then stands still. Searching for answers. Finding questions. Focus. Random. Found. Lost.
October 2007
4 posts
I had some chocolate.
Shelly brought in this cake again called Death by Chocolate. She keeps perfecting it and the one she brought in today was the best. I am not suppose to eat/drink a lot of sugar or carbs and I need to loose weight but this is the best cake in my world. Chocolate makes life a lot better but it’s a poor substitution for Brandon. However, since he has to lead his own life guess I’ll...
Having a bad day
It seems to come in cycles. Overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. Damn good thing I laugh easily at stupid things. Then just when I think it’s under control I have to deal with other people’s shit. I don’t get paid enough to deal with the crap that goes on. How can I provide a service when I don’t have experienced staff to deal with all the work. There has to be a...
Sad
A friend has leukemia, is on chemotherapy and was started on a morphine pump. This person regrets going to the doctor but is afraid to go to sleep. It’s very difficult to see this person in their present condition especially when it causes flashbacks. I need a shoulder.
Hershey's Sugar-free Chocolate
Mmmmm! Hershey’s improved it’s sugar-free chocolate using Splenda. It satisfies the chocolate craving.
September 2007
2 posts
At the Present Time.....
…….the idiot that left her 2 year old in the car all day in the heat is not being charged! Oh, the poor thing, she’s suffered enough. Bull Shit! Witnesses have stated she’s done it before including the older sibling of the one who died in the car. They are not allowing past events to be used in the present situation because this time she “forgot” the child...
Hummingbirds
My parents live across the street and no it’s not a problem. They moved in after we have been settled and it was more to my advantage. I digress. They have hummingbirds in their backyard and have plants and feeders to keep them around. Mom and Dad went out of town a couple of days ago so I went over to watch them this morning by myself. They are very territorial. There are plenty of...
August 2007
5 posts
Hey, Bentoman.....
……..I’m Bumblebee. “Stop lubricating that dog!”
Gravelrama Time!
Today is the parade. I remember many years ago when a young man thought it was so cool that the monster truck Bigfoot came to town for the event. I’ve seen the parade a few times but never attended the races. If you like 4-wheeling check out this site: http://www.na-motorsports.com/Tracks/OH/Gravelrama.html It’ll be racing all weekend.
Too Hot!
……and I don’t mean I got my sexy back. The weather is unbelievable. It’s over 100 degrees today but I’m inside where it’s cold all the time that when I go out it takes a while for the heat to get to me. It’s so bad some idiot left their 2 year old in the car with the windows up and you can guess what happened. They should stuff them into a car and see...
Damn.....
….guess I’m whiny, too.
Not a good day
You know the day is going to suck when almost everyone around you is whining and complaining. I’ve been having discomfort in my chest. Anxiety or physical. Who knows and at this point who cares. On a brighter note……my son’s life seems to be very exciting. New apartment, new job, new location. Still sucks to be me. Got a new Solstice and too hot to drive it with the top...
July 2007
10 posts
Still at work....and the stupid people are...
I still let stupid people cause me frustration. I have no time for them and I’m surrounded.
The Bureaucracy of Human Emotion
I’m stained with frustration I’m disillusioned by the world I’m fed up with the bureaucracy Of human emotion We over analyze everything We never take things at face value Ponder this, ponder that Think about your place in life Anguish is caused because pain fills your head But yet we can’t stop thinking about it Calmness washes over those who forget That don’t think about their...
Pearl Retires
Pearl’s farewell performance in “Good Cop Bad Cop” at www.funnyordie.com/ She’s my hero!
Deadwood where have you gone?
My favorite quote: ”Everyday takes figuring out all over again” Calamity Jane
Brandon's Back in Japan
Made a deal & I’m determined to keep my end of the bargain.
Vista vs Apple......Apple may win
Network issues
Pearl Still Rules
A funny Will Ferrell short for those who still don’t know.
Live Free or Die Hard
Lives up to the previous Die Hard movies. The green screen was too obvious and the conflict with the daughter was tiresome. In spite of my complaints it’s definitely worth seeing. Brandon had never seen the first three (Die Hard, Die Hard 2, Die Hard with a Vengeance) so we had to add them to our collection and watch before seeing this one. It pulls in a lot of stuff from the first three....
Transformers
Great movie! Funny. Amazing action sequences. Superior CG. Seamless. I my opinion (everyone is entitled to have one) the movie was too short. I want more!
Busy, busy, busy
Running around and doing laundry, just like old times. Sleeping has improved just having him back home. I feel bad that I put 20 or more back on since August 2006 but I have a goal now.
June 2007
6 posts
He's Home
Brandon arrived on Thursday. I had been sitting in a small eatery where I could see the gate. I was thinking about what I would do if his plane came in early. I think about stuff like that, no idea why. Anyway, I’m sitting there looking for the top of his head the way I always do when waiting for him to return home, I looked up and DAMN! I froze for a moment because he is so much...
3 DAYS!
Trying to hang in there and keep my emotions under control. Everyone that knows me knows Brandon will be home Thursday.
1 MORE WEEK......
……..Brandon will be home!!!! (back flips)
No Way to Win
There are some people that no matter how hard to try to prevent it can find a way to irritate the hell out of you. I have started to work on the way I manage my self control which can be a huge stretch for someone with strong emotions. Working sucks!
2 Weeks
Brandon’s coming home! (dancing) He’s lucky I screwed up and lost the other text (still dancing).
e. e. cummings
To my best friend:
i carry your heart……
May 2007
9 posts
Pearl Rules
http://www.funnyordie.com/v1/view_video.php?viewkey=3efbc24c7d2583be6925
Girls Next Door
Yes, it’s fluff. Last night I saw the show with the most popular scenes and my favorite was in it. It’s the one with Bridgette’s dog, Wednesday, goes catatonic after she dressed him in a bunny costume. The poor thing totally stops moving everything except his eyes then slowly slides to the floor. It totally cracks me up!
Pirates 3
This movie was funny from the beginning. I don’t want to give away anything about the ending, one part was predictable, however, the last scene was a chuckle. The adult humor is there from the start which the kiddies don’t pick up on because the visual is strong and the dialogue is soft. It was three hours well spent.
Speed of Life
I can’t decide if I want time to speed up or slow down….God, I hope this is my difficult question of the day because it doesn’t matter and I can’t do anything about it anyway. I miss you.
Weekends
Weekends are for catching up on all the crap you couldn’t get done during the week because you work sixty hours or more and after the 45 minute drive home you’re too tired to do anything. So every Saturday it’s clean house, do laundry, and mow the yard. Sunday it’s finish the laundry and grocery shopping.
To have any time for myself I have to get up early but then I...
Just another day
Why is it so many people “don’t want to point fingers” and then immediately proceed to tell what this person or that person did that was wrong or stupid. Now I understand why the previous supervisor always had that goofy smile on her face. I prefer my blank stare. They think I’m going to yell or I’m mad when all I’m trying to do is not tell them how stupid...
Happy Mother's Day!
Visit, phone home, e-mail, say a prayer, or lend a shoulder. Make every Mother feel loved, wanted and needed.
I love you Mom. You were there when I couldn’t do it on my own and had almost given up. Thank you.
And I’d like to thank my son for giving me laughter. He’s a great person. And I’d like to apologize, again, for yelling about the spilled milk. To infinity!