If I only had some chocolate.....

Having a bad day

It seems to come in cycles. Overwhelming sadness and hopelessness. Damn good thing I laugh easily at stupid things. Then just when I think it’s under control I have to deal with other people’s shit. I don’t get paid enough to deal with the crap that goes on. How can I provide a service when I don’t have experienced staff to deal with all the work. There has to be a limit! I can’t even put everything out there ‘cause I can’t risk someone discovering this site and putting two and two together and using it against me. It’s like you can’t have a life that’s not tangled up with the people you work with because when you don’t you really don’t exist or have any real value. I have people who don’t have a desire to work, mental issues, or whatever else they can manufacture. God, to have a talent that would allow me to do something, anything, other than what I’m doing now. The best thing in my life is my son and family. I’m just so tired. I’m having dizzy spells off and on again and I’m scared it’s my Menniere’s coming back because the shunt is closing off. Fuck this it doesn’t matter and nobody else really cares.

Sad

A friend has leukemia, is on chemotherapy and was started on a morphine pump. This person regrets going to the doctor but is afraid to go to sleep. It’s very difficult to see this person in their present condition especially when it causes flashbacks. I need a shoulder.

Hershey's Sugar-free Chocolate

Mmmmm! Hershey’s improved it’s sugar-free chocolate using Splenda. It satisfies the chocolate craving.

At the Present Time.....

…….the idiot that left her 2 year old in the car all day in the heat is not being charged! Oh, the poor thing, she’s suffered enough. Bull Shit! Witnesses have stated she’s done it before including the older sibling of the one who died in the car. They are not allowing past events to be used in the present situation because this time she “forgot” the child was in the car. Again, Bull Shit! She’s white, has money and from a nice area. There’s a black woman who’s been in jail because a dog, that didn’t belong to her, was found dead in her backyard.

This woman doesn’t deserve to have any children. I can not express the outrage I feel.

You decide

http://www.wkyc.com/news/national/news_article.aspx?storyid=74028

Hummingbirds

My parents live across the street and no it’s not a problem. They moved in after we have been settled and it was more to my advantage. I digress. They have hummingbirds in their backyard and have plants and feeders to keep them around. Mom and Dad went out of town a couple of days ago so I went over to watch them this morning by myself. They are very territorial. There are plenty of flowers and feeders but this one will not allow any other birds around. It was sitting on a tiny branch and this other one came over and sat on a different branch. The first one just watched while the second moved around to a couple of other branches. No problems. I had to chuckle because as soon as the second hummingbird headed for a feeder the first went after it and kept chasing it until it left. I thought it was cool because I don’t have many opportunities to sit quietly for a few moments.

Sometimes I feel like the second one.  God, I’m whining again.

Hey, Bentoman.....

……..I’m Bumblebee.  “Stop lubricating that dog!”

Gravelrama Time!

Today is the parade. I remember many years ago when a young man thought it was so cool that the monster truck Bigfoot came to town for the event. I’ve seen the parade a few times but never attended the races. If you like 4-wheeling check out this site:

http://www.na-motorsports.com/Tracks/OH/Gravelrama.html

It’ll be racing all weekend.

Too Hot!

……and I don’t mean I got my sexy back.

 The weather is unbelievable.  It’s over 100 degrees today but I’m inside where it’s cold all the time that when I go out it takes a while for the heat to get to me.

It’s so bad some idiot left their 2 year old in the car with the windows up and you can guess what happened.  They should stuff them into a car and see how long it takes for them to die. 

Damn.....

….guess I’m whiny, too.

Not a good day

You know the day is going to suck when almost everyone around you is whining and complaining.  I’ve been having discomfort in my chest.  Anxiety or physical.  Who knows and at this point who cares.

On a brighter note……my son’s life seems to be very exciting.  New apartment, new job, new location.

Still sucks to be me.  Got a new Solstice and too hot to drive it with the top down.

Still at work....and the stupid people are thriving

I still let stupid people cause me frustration.  I have no time for them and I’m surrounded.

The Bureaucracy of Human Emotion

I’m stained with frustration

I’m disillusioned by the world

I’m fed up with the bureaucracy

Of human emotion

We over analyze everything

We never take things at face value

Ponder this, ponder that

Think about your place in life

Anguish is caused because pain fills your head

But yet we can’t stop thinking about it

Calmness washes over those who forget

That don’t think about their torment

One can only achieve peace through detachment

Separate yourself from society

Lose sight of all those that annoy you

Forget you ever met them

Whether it be a beautiful girl, or a broken promise

Your life is not worth the headache

If you allow yourself to be eaten up by bad memories

You become worthless and insignificant

Aren’t you tired of talking?

Do you feel like sobbing?

Close your eyes, then fantasize

And quietly drift off to sleep

Author Known but Anonymous

Date Unknown

Pearl Retires

Pearl’s farewell performance in “Good Cop Bad Cop” at www.funnyordie.com/

She’s my hero! 

Deadwood where have you gone?

My favorite quote:

 ”Everyday takes figuring out all over again”

           Calamity Jane
 

Brandon's Back in Japan

Made a deal & I’m determined to keep my end of the bargain.